“…Have ya heard of
that walking group in Fallcarragh??
…They do something
with mental health…”
That was the first time I heard of Solas…a random comment
from a friend … all very vague, but having tried and tested counselling, drugs,
and various other ‘’cures’’ I was at the point where Id try anything.
Walking, talking and listening?? Is that it??? After
speaking to Solas staff on the phone it sounded like a very chilled out, new
age, one stop shop for depression. Part of me wondered how in the hell can something
as simple as “walking, talking and listening” really be a solution? But let’s look at the alternative.
I was in bed all the time sleeping but never was getting any
rest! I was waking in the morning feeling like I had just put my head down to
sleep. I was cranky with everyone. No interest in myself, my life or friends
and family. Neglecting …reflecting…going around in circles…my daughter
wondering why her mum is so tired and no way of communicating my feelings to
anyone. Lonely.. ohh so so lonely all the time. Feeling alone even when
surrounded by people. Angry with myself for letting myself down and letting
others down. Constant criticism… having internal conversations with myself where
I was the worlds biggest failure and I believed every word I said to myself.
So off I went to see what the story was with this Solace
crowd. My first day was in November 2012, I walked up those stairs in the An
tSheain Bhearic to the Solace office and must of thought about running away 50
times or more. But I'm so glad there was still a small spark inside me that
kept pushing me to carry on in the door, even though it took all of the energy
in the world I had to make myself go in.
On reflection I feel it was the best decision I have ever
made.
(Suzie,04-03-2013 )
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